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Shifted

2010-08-30T02:52:00.002+08:00

baibai

check out 444hrs instead :)

Hihihihi

2010-08-29T01:13:00.001+08:00

Am gonna shift to another blog!

It's almost done.

2010-08-29T01:00:00.003+08:00

You text me when you want and stop replying when you don't feel like it. For that I don't think I ever wanna take the initiative to start a convo with you already. Because at the end of the day I'll only be the joke and being treated like a fool.

You keep telling me about the other someone. Thinking that I will wanna go here with him, do that with him etc etc. But com'on? You know it clearly, you know how are my feelings for you. Maybe you're just using him as an excuse to find faults on me. I don't know.

I don't think you have the intentions to allow me into your life anymore. The door is shut, closed tightly and locked. I searched hard for the keys but to no avail. Yet you kept turning the door knob and gave me signals that it's gonna open soon. But no, it is truely just a facade and you're not gonna open the damn door for me.

Your days can go on perfectly fine and good without me being there. I know. I don't think you'll ever need me the way I need you. Your love is fading, I know. You find it hard to say 'I love you' anymore. You don't miss me. You won't have the urge to see me. Yet for me, you're the one I'm thinking of when I'm falling asleep every night and once I open my eyes in the morning.

I love you, you know that very well. However you don't show interest in my love anymore.
So now, I think your time is over. And that's not because I gave up. It's because I've come to realised that somethings are just not meant to be- like us.

This break up have made me look at our relationship in a different view.
I want you too much. You? Wanting your life alone as much.
Thanks for the 429days of love, sorrows, happiness and anger. I'll remember every single detail of this relationship and they'll always be kept close to my heart.

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3inchlove: Wo yao qu Marina Bay Sands lepak!
blackkrosedying: don't worry someone will bring you there

Why isn't it: Don't worry, I'll bring you there someday. Why?

whats something about a guy that will turn u off?

2010-08-28T02:28:00.002+08:00

I actually don't like guys that sleep too much. Or to be exact, sleep in the early afternoon and only awake late at night.

WHAAAATS UR QNS AGN?

TrashBang Photoshoot!

2010-08-27T03:13:00.002+08:00

17th August 2010 (i got all my posts messed up alr :( )

Went to a studio at Bali Lane to get the photos for our shop done!

Check out our online store @ http://www.trashbang.blogspot.com/ ♥

Took some photos after the shoot since we still have got some time left!

I'm still in luv with my dressssss~

Had Crystal Jade for late lunch cum dinner!

The weather sucked that day, fucking rain like @#!$#@!%

Walked around Bugis Junction thereafter. Boring placeeeeee.

Decided to have Koi. There's a shop outside Iluma anyway!

Ben and Triff joined us :)

Slacked at Iluma sky garden for a whileeee. Left after being warned by the security twice. I don't get why the have such a big space yet they don't allow people to sit there.

Retarded much.

Desserts at Cheeky Chocolate thereafter.

Ben a.k.a FoxyChua looking retardedly funny yet happy with his cake.

It was a great chat with them hahaha. Home sweet home with Shermy! :)

I gave you all that I could

2010-08-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

Time to go. Need to go. Till then?

Nando's chickkkyyyyy

2010-08-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

21st and 22nd August 2010

Got Jeff to work with me for an event for Nando's! Yeah the restaurant that sells yummy chickennn. Initially he was supposed to work as the mascot minder which has the same job scope with me.... but becuz of his stupid and idiotic hair colour, he became...

......The black chicken HAHAH which name is Pery or something, I rlly dont know.

Roamed around Bugis then off to town for both days!

Poor himmmmmmm. So warm inside the damn thing!

That's JJ, the other mascot minderrr.

Robin, our in-chargeeee.

Spotteddd: slacking. Hahaah

It was kinda fun experience afteralllllll:)

Visit their outlet @ Tanglin Mall and Bugis Junction!

I heard it's really goooood, shall try it soon :)

Thank you

2010-08-26T01:47:00.001+08:00

20th August 2010

Maccas breakfast! :)

Met Weijun thereafter, and went to collect their payssss.

Headed over to Marina Sq- where the two idiots started to 'fish'

So much $$ spent on this stupid machine.

Ky &I caught Step Up 3 aftermath, Weijun went home!

This boy slept thru out the whole movie, cuz he didn't sleep for the entire night.

So afterall I was watching it alone :/

These are so cute

Membina for dinner with him and Aaronnnnnnn!

Home after thatttttt.

Tell me what you want to hear.

2010-08-25T04:52:00.000+08:00

18th August 2010

Impromptu decision to head down to meet Jeff. Gave him back his jacketttt which I have been wearing it to sleep for like two nights before hehe.

Headed down to BM library to return my books which I borrowed for my assignments.

Was bored so we browsed thru the libraryyyy, found this book which has awesome photos in it.

Headed back to his placee.

Decided to head down to RV for Swirl Art's froyoooo cuz I was craving for some desserts!

So colourful

Saw this only after we left........... :(

I want waffles!

Took the bus home.

I love taking bus back with himmmmmmmmm, somehow.

Good night!

I miss you

2010-08-24T05:39:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry that it's this way

2010-08-24T03:01:00.002+08:00

You're not willing to, neither am I.

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2010-08-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

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2010-08-22T01:54:00.002+08:00

Bbygirl's birthday

2010-08-18T03:18:00.002+08:00

14 August 2010

Went down to Marina Barrage for Jiamin's birthday! Sorry bbygirl, for only staying a while and didn't get to talk to you muchhh. But I'm glad you enjoyed yourself alright!! Meet you really sooonn ♥

Ky: Eh you got bring cam or not?

Me: Havee, why?

Ky: Take photo of my bike leh! Got the sea sea view all~

Me: ... okay.

Izdi! Havent seen him in a whileeeeeeeeeeee. We need to meet up sooon bro!

I only have some photos with me, the rest are with MC! Which, I don't have any of them yettttttt.

Kites, kites...

Went for service @ expo thereafter. Was late thoughhhhh :/ Had dinner @ Whitesands' HK Cafe.
Overall it was an enjoyable day I guesssss! :)

2010-08-17T02:34:00.002+08:00

The Last Airbender

2010-08-16T02:35:00.001+08:00

I really liked how I spent Monday, 9 August 2010... somehow.

12 August, Thursday

Met Jeff at his place, then we headed down to Cine for moviesssss. Wanted to watch Despicable Me (yes i know im fucking slow i havent watch yet -_-) but it was sold outttttttt, so we caught The Last Airbender! It was kinda gooooddd, the plot and stuffs. Gonna be a second part! One thing is that the movie was kinda draggyyyyy. Headed home thereafter.

p.s: no we're not back tgh

Aaron and Kaiyuan's birthday chalet!

2010-08-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

Went to their chalet last weekendddddddddd! Wasn't really filled with activities but I kinda' had fun I guessss :)

Checked in to chalet with the usuals. Ky &I headed to expo for service after a whileeee. Felt great to be back to church. Last week's sermon was damnn good and meaningfullllll I swear!

Shall share some photosssssssss, all at fb!

This was after service, before heading back to the chalettttt

Birthday boysssssssss! Advanced though ahhaa. (so gayz)

Joelllllllllllllllllllllllll. BABYYYYYYYY~~~ BRO. HAHA

See laaa, geh kiang take out studdd. Now no more piercing alr.

Sorry for being sucha emo fuck that dayyyyyyyy!

Ahhaooooooo! Fucker. Hahah thx so much for making me tipsy that night >:@

Took this after he puked hahaha

They were mahjong-ing the whole night. Boring fuckkkkk man.

Delighted bday boy with pressyyy

Was fucking hungry after drinking and puking with empty stomachhh.

Gayyyyyyyyyy much!

Slept in the morningggg. Woke uppppp, the guys went for a swimmm. Rotted in the room with the others for a lil while before heading to the beach for a walk with Kyyyyyyy.

Then it was texas poker for the whole eveninggg.

Jeff meddled with his pimplee and there were lots of blood. Fucking grossss!!

Darwin sent me back at night! The rest stayed overrrrrrrrr.

Shall end this post with a lovely photo of Glenn :)

HAHAHAHAH

Those photos

2010-08-11T20:56:00.005+08:00

I rlly wish those photos can get out of my mind. I wish I've never seen them

Classmates

2010-08-11T19:45:00.001+08:00

6th August

Went to school for just one tutorial cuz I skipped one :/

After which, headed to BTP with classmates for Pizza Hut! :)

Had awesome eclairs while waiting for our seats at pizza hutttttttt. Super nice!!

Headed to town with Sella, Kaiying, Suyi, Liyana and Zakiah for shopping! :)

Had a great time with themmmmmmm. Bumped into Mingyang at Town and I headed down to membina with him :) Talked quite abit haha, he's so funnayyeee. Met the usuals there. Thanks for the cough syrup Kaiyuannn!

2010-08-10T03:51:00.003+08:00

I remember you telling me we're not meant to be apart.
I guess, things change. So fast, I can't catch up.

2010-08-10T01:25:00.002+08:00

This path is shaky. I should never have walked here. Now you tore me apart, again. Unintentionally.

Long update!

2010-08-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hihi lemme updatee!

August 2nd

Was craving for Ikea's Swedish food! Aaron and Kaiyuan brought me there after we're done with the bikes hehe :) Glenn and Weekiat were there toooooo.

Look at his smileeeeeeeeee. So cute it makes me laugh ahahhaha

Something was so funny they couldnt stop laughingggggggggggggggg, as usual haha.

I said I like the puppy soft toy and they did this to me :(

Went walking around the night market across the road, and Kaiyuan bought me duriannns! Yay me. Hahha pool thereafter and Aaron sent me back. Thx again brooooooo :)

August 3rd

Kaiyuan came over to fetch me from school and we went down to HKL to meet Aaron and Glenn! :)
He wasnt late this time round! Hahahh didn't break his promise :) So we had lunch over there and we decided to have Swirl Art @ RV rd. Jeff, Ys and Wk came over tooooo and we slacked there for a while. Felt really fucked up there. Thanks people, for the packet of tissue haha :) Aaron and Kaiyuan fetched me back before heading to Queensway to join them for pooollll. :)

August 5th

Last day of attachment! Will definitely miss the kids! :(
Met Jeanna after so longggggggggg. Had a good catch up with her :) We had Ice cream buffet at Ion's Swensens. Fucking sinful but damn shiok I swear!

Salivating yet?

Shopped around town after that :)
Met Aaron etc when Jeanna leftttttt. Shopped again and home sweet home!

Update again tmr! :)

2010-08-07T04:33:00.000+08:00

coward. yeah, you. that's right.
im rlly disappointed in you

My heart is screaming,

2010-08-06T00:17:00.003+08:00

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I love you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I love you Jeffrey I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you Jeffrey I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

spot the differences?

I know I need to

2010-08-05T01:43:00.004+08:00

LET GO.
&

MOVE ON.

but how?

Really?

2010-08-03T00:39:00.001+08:00

Is this really what you want?

I was happy, I swear

2010-08-01T01:02:00.004+08:00

Need some space, for now.

2010-07-28T01:47:00.001+08:00

I have no idea what have gotten into me but I guess I've lost my vibe to blog, for now. Been really busy with myself, and yes myself, only. Sorting out my thoughts and finding out what I really want. Guess I'll be leaving this space for a while till... I'm better. I guess. Days have beem good just rushing my assignments and thinking way too much at night. Yeah, that's if you categorized that as good. At least I know I'm not alone.. and I wanna just thank my friends for the encouragement that you guys have been giving. Suyi, Huishan, Sella Kaiying and more.. And of course not to forget those people that take all of my craps and accompany me, trying to keep me busy(if that is) and talking shit with me- Sherm, Aaron, Kaiyuan, Weekiat, Yongsheng.. You know I value these people.

Life might have been bad to me but at least I still have these wonderful people to fall on. I know I'm like talking abit too much rubbish and nonsensical stuffs here but.. yeah I just need to throw my thoughts here I guess. And to you, yeah you. It's been harsh. Please lead your way back. I love you. I do. You don't have to say anything, I just wanted you to know. Alright?

Till then, till I recover.
xx

I will always love you

2010-07-27T19:31:00.002+08:00

You said forever, remember?

Selling: Maxi Dress

2010-07-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

Dark Grey

Free size

41.7" down

Brand new!

Selling for $23mailed!

email me @ michhelle-@hotmail.com if interested :)

I love you,

2010-07-24T23:54:00.004+08:00

So, please.

It's always you.

2010-07-23T03:03:00.004+08:00

The more I force myself not to think about it, the harder I fall. And each time, it gets deeper.. and deeper.

Now I can't get up.

I'm so broken

2010-07-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

What do you do when you just fell out of love?

I hugged my Mom and cried really hard.

Peace

2010-07-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

Assignments are piling up like nobody's business and I really have to start working hard.. I guess. Got back another of my essay today and scored an A! But am really sad about getting D+ for my Child Development module. Didn't study for it though :/ You reap what you sow- totally.

On a higher note, Baby bought us ring :)

You can't really see properly but there're bar codes on the ring hahaha, he chose it!

I just need some peace, away from all the quarrels, disappointments and hurtful words.

2010-07-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

I love you, is that enough?

---

I wanna talk to you more.. you make me feel as if I'm just a friend to you.

It hurts.

Awesome

2010-07-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

I want all of them!

2010-07-17T23:50:00.003+08:00

Letting someone go is very difficult, but in some cases it will be more difficult if you don't.

Hey,

2010-07-17T02:32:00.002+08:00

Thanks, I needed that.

Boy,

2010-07-17T01:30:00.001+08:00

You make me feel so horrible.

Empty

2010-07-15T01:45:00.005+08:00

Hello people I had a short photoshoot today and it went kinda well. Given that I have been skipping shoots, being too lazy to go for them cuz I've to wake up like... early. Decided to stop being so fuckin' lazy and get my ass to work. I want to work for events though! But the schedule always clashes! Wanted to work for the ITE hairshow thingy but can't make it in the end. I wanna dye my hair!! :(

Btw I was rotting at home today. Can really die of boredom man!! Then Aaron called me suddenly and said he's downstairs. Hehehe ^^ So we slacked, and suprisingly Kaiyuan was awake!! So we waiting for him to come down cuz we didn't have enough helmets. Haha, thanks bros!!!

So it was an impromptu decision to watch Toy Story 3 @ Tiong Plaza. The movie was goood!!!! Ky's stomach growled rlly loudly during the movie. Fucking epic, haha! Headed to Membina..... people started to come down and join us :) Baby came down too! ^^ Missed him so much. So we slacked &talked cockkkkkkk. So lifeless right, I know. So the bikers sent me back and we talked abit before I came back hehe.

Okay la very boring I know.. attachment tmr! ^^

Baby,

2010-07-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.

Everytime

2010-07-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

Forget what keeps me going yesterday. Forget what I wanted to be today. Forget what I thought I could be tomorrow. Because Im ready to let everything swift past me. All I want now is yesterdays memories with you, living today around you, and planning tmr with you. I hope thats not too much to ask for.

Nobody could make me move if im tired. Nobody could make me sit there for hours without talking. Nobody could let me cry solely because of them. Nobody, nobody but you. Do you not know?

Everytime we quarrel. I don't know what to say.
But I just know that I wanna send the message to you, telling you that, I love you.

2010-07-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

Oh well..
Gonna get it over and done with. Soon.

Just see.
Everyone, you guys were right.

2010-07-12T23:17:00.003+08:00

2010-07-11T22:56:00.003+08:00

My boyfriend looked like satay man that night ahah.

I love him to bits ♥

Chalet

2010-07-11T01:26:00.002+08:00

Went over to Bby's place to grab the utensils and stuffs cuz they left them there -.-

Took a freaking bus with Jiamin and Sherm to ECP which made us rlly .__.

Took a cab to the resort haha we srsly couldn't take it anymore.

Quite a lot of people were already there when we reached.

Went rounding with the bikers in the mid of the night.

Went over to Changi! The wind was srsly cold ttmx, Aaron &I were shivering on the bike hahaha.

So yeap,

Drunkards here and there.

Kaiyuan was being really irritating again, cuz he laughed like he inhaled laughing gas.

Which made us laughed uncontrollably, again!! Hahaha.

Didn't catch a wink of sleep, maybe 5mins yes.

Group by group left, then there were only a few of us left in the mid morning.

Watched them sleep, and we cabbed backkkkkk.

Have been rotting since I got back, tried to sleep, but couldn't.

It's half past 1am now, I should really get some sleep..

Haven't slept since 7am on Friday!!!!!

You can calculate the number of hours.......

Sigh

All I needed was, you.

2010-07-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

Crying, silently.
They were concerned.
But where were you?

...when I always needed you?

All I needed, was, maybe more attention.
Or just, a hug.

That's all that I asked for.

Happy 17th birthday Weekiat!

2010-07-08T01:27:00.000+08:00

Aaron &I headed to his place to meet him.

Gladys popped by to pass him his present :)

Swirl Art with Wk, Aaron and Ys!

Then it was steamboat at Bugis with them + Nich, Joel, Jiamin, Basil, Brandon, Sihan and Ky joined us at the later part.

Played the number guessing game, and the loser have to eat gross stuffs.

I kena three times in a row man!! So much for laughing at other people. Hahah!

Thanks Ys for helping me to eat on the third time hehehe.

Had a great time, just that we didn't took much photos! :(

Really full meal for me, was bloated!

Thanks Aaron for riding me back, and Ky for coming along! Haha :)

I miss Baby so much now! :(

Look at how much we've changed.

2010-07-07T02:05:00.001+08:00

Hi, I love this ass here.

Hahaha I can't stop laughing @ this photo. 3years+ ago HAHAH fuck!!!!

Cause' I had a bad day.

2010-07-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

I cry easily.

Only aliens can do this

2010-07-05T03:22:00.002+08:00

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should. Know that grudges are a waste of happiness. Let go of what you cannot change. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take some chances. Give all you have got. Always try to take things in your stride and smile when you’re feeling sad. Remember what you’ve got but also love and cherish what you have now. Give all that you have, because life is too short to be anything else but happy.

Are you?

2010-07-05T02:57:00.002+08:00

I can’t promise you a perfect relationship without arguments over our differences and trust issues.
However, I can promise you that as long as you’re trying, I’m staying. With you.

I miss those days too.

2010-07-05T02:40:00.000+08:00

No matter how bad the world becomes, I'll stand by you.

I will never have any intentions to hurt you, or to irritate you. Blame my love for you then.

2010-07-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

"You know what really hurts? When you think that you put all your trust into someone and they end up being unloyal. When you know the truth, ask them about it and they think they can just lie to your face. When you have this perfect image of someone makes you realise the truth. When everyone tells you it’s not worth it and a part of you wants to hold on. When everything you’ve ever fucking worked for gets thrown in the damn trash."

Alone.

2010-07-04T01:17:00.000+08:00

Bugis with Weekiat, Jeff and Nich.

Boring.

Went there cuz Weekiat wanna buy stuffs.

Your smile.

Is no longer the same.

2010-07-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

Got two gradings back today, A for speech training oral which is like, 40%? And an A+ for my field practicum essay which is 20%. Okay, I'm satisfied. Considering the amount of effort I put in my assignments and such, I think a lot of my classmates deserve my grades more than I do.

Anyway so it's a rainy day again, hate it when I'm in school man seriously. Everyone is just flooding. Makes me relunctant to wear shoes to school cuz it'll be soaking wet!! Have been wearing slippers like, everyday?! I headed down to membina in the evening after washing up at home. Typical night at membina I guess, but without Jeff:( Was with YS, KY, Aaron and Joel.

Was hoping to see him but I guess he won't be there anyway..
Aaron rode me back again :)

You're the key to my heart

2010-07-03T00:35:00.001+08:00

Boy you put me on the spot I don't know what to say
But I'm trying anyway
Like my hearts gonna drop
My mind drifts away and I can't control the pains

Words are spinning in my head
Don't know why I'm holding back
I should just tell you how I'm feeling yeah

But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart

The more I brush it off
Tell myself it's nothing at all
Deeper I fall
And I imagine everyday
A thousand different ways
How you respond to what I say

Am I getting lost in my dreams?
Are you unreachable to me?
Cause these butterflies just won't go away

Boring thursday

2010-07-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Attachment today as usual. Had music class hawhaw so cute right

Ryan hugged me today hehe so cute.

Went back home and it was pouring like crazy? Didn't had an umbrella but I was smart enough. Hahaha home to do my assignment. Couldn't stand staying at home so Aaron came over to fetch me after the rain stopped :) Headed to Alexandra and waited for Ky's bike to be repaired. RV for Swirl Art with Aaron Darwin and KY. I had a really filling lunch all thanks to Ky. Fuck man....... angsty! :@

Ky's helmet, so cute right!!

kthxbai hahahah

Silence

2010-07-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

I brought my cam out today but didn't snap any photos.

Smile?

2010-06-30T01:52:00.003+08:00

I believe in you.

2010-06-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Please don't keeelll me hahaha.

I'll love you, always ♥

Why you so cute?

2010-06-29T00:39:00.001+08:00

Hello people I miss you guys

2010-06-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

Izdi Herrick Ziyu Avril Weekiat :)
These were taken almost a year ago! Hawhaw

2010-06-27T04:42:00.001+08:00

How does my hair look?

2010-06-27T03:36:00.000+08:00

But like cannot see clearly hor? :/

It's about time I do something about my hair eh.

Mmmmmm... suggestions?

I chose to stay.

2010-06-26T14:19:00.005+08:00

"Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else.
Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices.
But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you,
even though walking away would be so much easier."

-runawaytrain

I don't understand, &probably never will.

2010-06-26T03:22:00.003+08:00

It keeps lingering in my mind... the differences in our texts...
The words you used...

;those that broke my heart anew

I just want to be happy, again.

2010-06-26T02:57:00.001+08:00

Ain't helping at all

2010-06-25T22:05:00.001+08:00

CAN LIFE GET ANY BETTER? FUCK.

Oh my God I hate my life.

Why?

2010-06-25T02:28:00.000+08:00

Everyone asked me to forgive you for the one last time..

I wanna hear from you.. but the answer was............

L-o-v-e

2010-06-25T01:53:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons,
and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the
time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t
love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in
our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when
they shouldn’t. "

-runawaytrain.

Sometimes, a r/s is not only about love.

2010-06-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

Today, is the most disappointing day in my life.

For the past three days, we've been quarrelling. Same issues, different points. You know I'm just so sick of it? I tried to salvage. I tell myself I am forgiving enough. I did. I walked the whole clementi to look for you. I was afraid something would happen to you. Calling people on the phone, crying, don't know where to walk next. But there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I will find you, I will. And I did. Saw you sitting there, all I could do was to hug you tight. But the very next day, you had to do even more disappointing thing again. Have been like this for the past 4days or so eh? And I didn't even know a shit. Even after a huge quarrel, you have to do it. Do you think our r/s is not bad enough that you have to do these things to make it even worse? I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw those words. I really can't. My heart told me it's over. But this love gave me a reason that maybe we could continue and start afresh. And I accepted it, and forgave you again. Today I found out you did it, again. I really can't walk this path anymore, the pain is excrutiating. You said break up seems to be coming out from my mouth very easily. Do you really think so? Even if that's the case, have you thought of why it seems this way? I might have done disappointing things as well, but I can promise that they will never happen ever again. Can you? You promised and the next thing you did was to repeat your mistakes again. Do you think that my heart is really so forgiving? Right after you got up the bus last night, you've already made a huge mistake..

Do you really deserve another chance?
I wonder.

/editted

Oh and how you can just leave me when I was feeling the most vulnerable. Even if you're pissed you shouldn't even have done that. The thought of you being such a nice friend when your friend is injured.. I really wonder now, what is my position in your heart.

Perhaps.. I'm just a nobody.

2010-06-24T00:46:00.001+08:00

Fuck all this shit..

Sad lyfe

2010-06-23T01:53:00.002+08:00

My life is a dramatic piece of shit

True much

2010-06-22T15:20:00.001+08:00

Thankful

2010-06-22T03:50:00.002+08:00

I had a long chat with Renzo. I am.. cheered up. A little, at least.

2010-06-22T02:20:00.004+08:00

Kbox with Weekiat Glenn Carilyn Angeline Joel today. Izdi joined, then Sherm too.
Dinner at Chinatown food streettttttt. Then home :)
Boring but, better than nothing to do at home. Im fucking bored now helloooooo?!??

I wanna eat chocolate ice cream :D

Holding on

2010-06-21T02:21:00.003+08:00

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

So here I am, still holding on

2010-06-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

I didn't enjoy myself at all..

Hello I am fucking tired now

2010-06-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

ECH conference was.... boring. Everyone was grumpy and sleepy and idk...

This bitch wore heels MADE ME LOOK SO PATHETIC

Awesome people :)

@ the lib with Suyi before leaving sch

Isaac came to fetch me with Michelle Sherm &Ale.

Marina Barrage. Fucking guai lan ah tiong @ the shop.

Our kite is like, dont wanna fly lor. I is jitao very dulan lor.

See you girl + guys tmr ♥♥

Spermy is always entertaining us with her drunk stories wahaha

Gays

The loving Monteiths ♥ Srsly theyre like fucking sweet. Where's mine hur hur hur!?

Bumped into them! And Gladys too!

Hai Michelle hehe

Good night..

Bitch outz

2010-06-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

17th June

It was sentosa with the Glenn Mingjie Shane Ashley Nich Zach Mitz Junkiet Qiaosen (i hope i didnt miss anyone out!)

Chilling outz + volleyball actionz

Shane da Gangster "we didnt come sentosa to lose volleyball one hor" fierce bro, you can (Y)

Then it was vivo for dinner @ BK then rooftop to chill.

Bro dont so sad alr bro

Yknow Im always listening

Left a while later

Clem to slack with Nich then Izdi came down for a while with my pressy. Thanks bro (Y)

2010-06-17T03:13:00.000+08:00

I've got only one more test to do and I'm done with my schoolwork (Y) = playtime!

My week has more or less been planned out:
Bitch out @ Sentosa with sec school mates l8r on hawhawhaw Glenn planned it :)
Friday will be kite flying then food hunt with the Monteiths + Ale + Sherm! Have got ECH conference in the morning though :/ So relunctant to go but attendance is complusory :(
Saturday will be conference till 530 :/ Then I'll be heading to Supperclub with Spermy then PH with Monteiths and Ale! Anyone wanna join in? :)

So I should probably be heading to bed now and I resisted to watch South Africa VS Uruguay's match now! Bby is watching though, I wish he'd come over and watch.

Alright, nighty nights!

Amazing.

2010-06-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

Accept and love me for who I am.

2010-06-16T02:15:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up really early and feeling excited. Then I regained my freedom.
Today I felt cranky for no apparent reason.
Today I went town then West Coast with my mom and sis.
Today I had sushi.
Today I regretted some of the things I did in the past.

Today I miss baby, just a bit more than usual.

Today I thought, maybe it's just you.

Show me what you've got.

2010-06-16T02:07:00.001+08:00

2010-06-15T12:00:00.002+08:00

FREEDOM!!!!! (Y)

2010-06-15T01:18:00.001+08:00

I am hard to please I get jealous easily. So?

Define love.

2010-06-15T00:28:00.001+08:00

Today my boyfriend is sick. I couldnt bare to wake him up so I watched him sleep.

I bought brunch for him and made him eat his medicine.

I went home after he fell asleep.

Am I not good enough?

2010-06-14T02:09:00.001+08:00

I met Jeanna! Even though half of the time we were wandering around town, I had a great time with her:

Happy burfday to me.

2010-06-13T00:03:00.001+08:00

Last night was disaster. Sorry baby :( Please forgive me :(

Thanks and sorry guys!!

Have got only one photos from ytd. Others are with Sherm. Haha Sherm, "MY PICKTURES!!!! :'( " HAHA!!!

So this morning I woke up with a headache, feeling nauseous. Headed back home, then waited for the guys to meet me. They took so long, I almost got bored to death :(

Anyhowz, we had dinner @ Pizza hut. Was last minute plan.. Thanks for the cake, people! :)

More pix on Fb!

xoxo

2010-06-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

Life has been fair.

2010-06-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

When I'm gone

2010-06-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice.
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I didn't feel a thing.
So baby don't feel my pain.
Just smile back:)

At the end of the day,

2010-06-09T02:26:00.002+08:00

I've got nothing.

You,

2010-06-09T02:24:00.001+08:00

meant everything.

2010-06-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

I IZ XIAOLIANZX MAXIMUMZ HEELLLLUUZ

You

2010-06-08T00:03:00.005+08:00

Since youve been gone, nobody buys me supper when I'm hungry.
Since youve been gone, nobody sends me to school and wait outside till school's out.
Since youve been gone, nobody suprises me in the morning.
Since youve been gone, there're no sweet texts that greets good morning and good night.
Since youve been gone, v'day were just a bouquet of flowers, not you.
Since youve been gone, I tried to fill the emptiness in me.
Since youve been gone, I waited for the day you return.

Now that youre almost gone, forever...
I heaved a sigh of relief.

You said humans are fugly. So am I. No matter how much love there is in me. So now, I'm gone.

I do, remember everything you once said to me. But it's over now. I'm moving on.
Your sentence wasn't our last obstacle. Our last obstacle was, us.

Life

2010-06-07T01:37:00.001+08:00

Life have been so-so.

Today I met Pohteck for Kbox. Have been kinda' long since I last met him! Thanks for the treat anyway bro hahahahaha

I met Sherm after that, Baby came down to pass me my charger. Left it at his place on Friday :/
I didn't study for my Child development test tmr. GG.com.

Sian

2010-06-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

I love how I can fall asleep so quickly when I'm hugging baby:)
I love how I wake up with his funny yet adorable sleeping positions beside me.

I love you baby :(

2010-06-05T22:56:00.001+08:00

The worst is when you show the one you love the most vulnerable sight you have yet they doesn't do anything to help.

And when you try to heal yourself with the last inch of hope you have, you lie to yourself, that everything will be alright again.

But the fact is, once the harm is done, only the one that did it can heal you. Though it'll never be fully healed, at least it helps, a bit. And it's the only thing that helps...